And I just can’t seem to get enough of any word she speaks…

It’s Mel.

Robbins.

I recently had lunch with an acquaintance I work with in our industry and along with the natural catch-up and newness of sharing our positions, we got chatting about podcasts and books. Stephanie suggested the Mel Robbins Podcast on Audible.

So I started with her audiobook, Kick Ass. If you haven’t listened to it, I can’t recommend it enough. It’s eight recorded LIVE coaching sessions with people at various ages and places in their lives and she coaches them through what’s blocking them. And what’s blocking them isn’t the thing that’s really blocking them. It’s a symptom of what’s blocking them, the block is so much more covert, hidden, childhood trauma, life things with ninja-like reflexes that really fuck with us, and impair our ability to be about the business of being the people we’re created and meant to be.

Every story, every session was relatable to me, they all felt like me in one way or another, and that was shocking, scary, and somehow comforting all at the same time.

My blocks… what’s fucking me up from losing the weight I need to make me healthier? What’s fucking me up to stop and ask for the help I need… well, there’s a ton…

There’s being told from a really young age that I am 12 going on 25 and being forced to be the caregiver I shouldn’t have been nor was I ready for. Which then cleverly keeps perpetuating a need to be good enough. After all, I am 12 going on 25…

Except I’m not. Now, I’m 50 being 50.

And it shows up EVERYWHERE. Getting fired from my first job every at nearly 50 years old did a number on that 12 going on 25 year old. And not to say that I should have been fired, I shouldn’t have. I should have never stepped in to the position in the first place, but that’s a by gone story.

It’s everything; every interaction in my life where I wear a mask that shows the world I can do literally ANYTHING and the deep held limiting belief that even if I present perfect, I’m just not, nor will I ever be good enough. And seriously… what kind of bullshit is that?

In listening to Mel, daily, and, I’m showing up different. She makes sense, she’s direct… and she swears, and I love it. She’s not sugar coating anything. And it’s not to say she’s not exercising compassion, because she does, just in a way that won’t let me sit on my rear and not work at breaking the patterns of the things that consistently show up, and that if I do choose to stay status quo, at this point, it’s on ME.

I am in-dependence of finding my way through to really being the person I am made to be, the one out there kicking ass and showing up. Thank you Mel Robbins for that.